Day 2: January 15, 2015

(This is part of a series of writings I made while in the hospital recently, originally written January 15. Read the introduction post in this category for more background information.)

I feel a bit better today, what a thing sleep can do. I feel a bit more clear headed, yesterday I actually wasn’t sure why I was even here. I am still very scared though, no one wants me to go back to like with J and A, but I don’t know where I’m going to go from herr. I overheard some social worker talk to someone about placing them in Camden, I really don’t want to end up in Camden. Maybe I’m just seeing too much into this.

What should my goal be for today? I’ve slept a lot yesterday so I’m trying to sleep less today.

Day 1: January 14, 2015

(This is part of a series of writings I made while in the hospital recently, originally written January 14. Read the introduction post in this category for more background information.)

The past few hours have been a little blurry but I know one thing for sure, something has to change. Going into this I was sure that I could co-habitats with Sarah. I was wrong, the resent and anger got the best of me last night and got me admitted. I’m not sure exactly what I did to get me here but I got admitted. What bothers me right now is exactly how I got here and the fact that I don’t think I can go back home with her there, and what gets me even worse is that he doesn’t feel he has any part in what happened between us. I don’t like it here. I guess no one really would. I feel like I have to constantly look over my shoulder. I only slept like 3 hours last night and didn’t have much for breakfast, it’s gonna be a long day.

Upcoming blog posts

I will be starting to post my writings from when I spent about six weeks in the hospital (Jan 16-Feb 26) but first some notes:

I’m gonna post them as I wrote them, curse words and all so a lot of it might not make sense.

Names will be changed to protect mainly me.

I did not post every day

Before anyone asks, I am feeling “somewhat” better after my discharge, I still have bad days.

Constructive or positive comments are appreciated, all others will not be approved.

All posts will have the category and tag “hospital” without quotes.

Thank you in advance for reading.