My Future?

I was floating through facebook overnight last night and found this link.. I’ll let you read it for yourself


Its about a Australian paramedic who left her job after 14 years to pursue another field, that brought me to thinking about recent events and my future in emergency services….

In August of 2002 I joined the closest volunteer EMS squad out of a fluke, I was bored and wanted something to do with my time while I was going to college. A then friend of mine tried convincing me to do it to meet women, but that wasn’t my intention.. I was bored with my life. What I didn’t expect was what would happen the next 12 years.

Recently I found myself out of a job, stressed, depressed (again) and letting the bipolar take control. After a recent suicide attempt I decided that I needed to change something big in my life…. I was taking a lot of big steps, going out on my own, separating with my wife and I decided that emergency services and medical transport was no longer the career for me.

Don’t get me wrong, I loved being an EMT, but after the years of working through my mood swings, even when I was medicated I found working on the truck difficult. My anxiety grew bigger and bigger with each call or transport I would take, now that I will have the opportunity to get training for a new career that its the time to close one big chapter of my life and open another one.

I will miss a lot of things from my EMS career, both as paid and volunteer. The “brotherhood” of EMS/Fire/Police, I met A LOT of AWESOME people and will remain friends with each one as long as they would have me, the excitement of each call, the feel that I got when I had the opportunity to make a difference in someones’ lives. I’ve seen my share of deaths and I’ve also seen my share of saves. Each call will leave some sort of memory for me.

But the biggest thing that I will miss came from my time as a volunteer, I cherished the opportunity to teach EMT students and hopefully helped make them the EMT’s they are today.

As I close this chapter of my life I am VERY excited and a little nervous about the next step, but I wont know where it will lead until I put one foot forward.

I love you all and be safe out there!