Happy holidays

I hope that everyone had a good holiday, no matter what you celebrated. I had a great Christmas! I ended up getting a new cell phone cause mine took a dump. But I do have some good news.

My wife, who also has bipolar disorder got a call back from the program she wanted to get involved with. She should get accepted into the program for counseling and medication management. Not just to make sure she keeps her Medicaid.

I hope I didn’t completely sell out.

I never really wanted to use this site to make money but times are tough. However instead of flat out begging for cash, I would share some sites where you can earn free stuff. It’s still a work in progress but please check out Get Free Stuff! . In the feeling of full disclosure I do receive some sort of referrer bonus from the sites on the page.


Is it too early for resolutions?

I have a couple new years resolutions for 2014 and Id figure I would share them with you with the hope you might share yours.

1. Write a lot more: Awhile back the wife made me make a list of things Id be interested in doing. One of those was to write a book, so that is why I should write more. She suggested that I take my blog after a long time and publish a book.

2. Keep a better grasp of my money: Better said than done sometimes for me while Im manic.

3. Be better with my mental health professionals: Basically meaning…. stop canceling appointments.

That’s all I have now. Feel free to leave yours in the comments.

On Newtown anniversary, America’s mental health system still a mess

On Newtown anniversary, America’s mental health system still a mess

By Dr. Keith Ablow / Published December 12, 2013 / Foxnews.com Article Link

It is nearly one year since 20-year-old Adam Lanza killed 20 children and 7 adults on December 14, 2012 at the Sandy Hook Elementary School in Newtown, Connecticut.

We now know that Lanza, like mass shooters James Holmes in Aurora, Colorado and Jared Loughner near Tucson, Arizona and Aaron Alexis at the Washington Navy Yard and Seung Hui Cho at Virginia Tech was severely mentally ill.

We also know that Virginia state senator Creigh Deeds was stabbed repeatedly by his son, who later shot himself in the head, just hours after being discharged from an emergency room, where he had complained of severe psychiatric symptoms.

Lanza, who was diagnosed with Asperger Sydrome, but who may well have merited other diagnoses, was obsessed with the topic of mass murder, played violent video games (including one about school shootings) and lived in the basement of his mother’s home, with the windows covered with black trash bags.

According to official reports, his mother, who allowed him to learn how to shoot a firearm and whom he killed by shooting her in the head, had communicated with him only by email for the three months prior to her death, even though the two lived together.

I wish that I could say that the year since Adam Lanza’s horrific acts has been one during which gun control advocates have realized their anti-gun agenda misses the point: Firearms aren’t the responsible variable in mass killings; untreated or poorly treated mental illness is.

The worst episode of school violence ever, back in 1927, took the lives of 45 children and adults in Bath, Michigan and involved no gun.

Moreover, shooting victims don’t come close to the body count from untreated mental illness in the United States.

There are tens of thousands of suicides in the United States every year. The rate of suicide has risen at least 15 percent in the last ten years.

Suicide is now the number one cause of injury-related death in the United States. And suicide surpassed combat deaths in the U.S. military during 2012.

I wish that I could say that the year since Adam Lanza’s horrific acts has been one in which the Surgeon General declared war on mental illness.

After all, the Obama administration is to be commended for issuing the Mental Health Parity and Addiction Equity Act, which seeks to prohibit insurers from specifically withholding mental health care services. And it is an important gesture that Vice President Biden announced funding of $100 million headed for community mental health centers and increasing access to care.

But while that legislation may provide some limited, increased access to care, it doesn’t address the massive problems with mental health care in America.

The mismanagement of mental health care relates to much more than putting it on par with managed care for diabetes –which is no panacea, by the way.

We have a dramatic insufficiency of inpatient psychiatry units. And even if you build more, we restrict access to those units to patients who are actively suicidal or homicidal — and just barely –until someone on staff convinces them to say they won’t kill themselves or someone else.

We haven’t done anything to meaningfully coordinate police departments and the courts with the gutted community mental health care system.

We continue to cram the level of expertise available to psychiatric patients down further and further — often out of the reach of M.D.s, with those in need only being seen, for all intents and purposes, case workers or nurses.

The Affordable Care Act (aka “ObamaCare”) will make all of this worse, not better.

Hospitals and insurers will force doctors further from direct patient care, to save money.

The number of psychiatric patients these non-M.D. health care professionals try to triage and treat will increase dramatically — without any new strategy to keep them safe and the public safe. So the most ominous cases may well slip through even bigger cracks.

HMO insurers still remain the wolf at the chicken coop — pretending to be dispensing managed “care” while having demonstrated they care mostly about giving as little psychiatric treatment as possible to their members.

The most dramatic fact is not that there was a Newtown last year — which was entirely preventable — but that, with the blind eye we continue to turn to our shattered mental health care system, that there has not yet been another.

Your thoughts on this?

Speaking out

One of the biggest things I wanted to accomplish when I started this blog was to use my story to stand up against the stigma of mental illness. The one thing I was surprised about was that I wasn’t alone.

On twitter alone I found many people using their blog to accomplish the same things I wanted to do. To use writing as a way to express myself and to let people know that we are not all crazy lunatics.

I want to tell you all about one person in particular and why I will personally drive the 100+ miles to see this project.

I first heard of Jennifer Marshall through her blog at BipolarMomLife.com. Her site was one of the first that I started to read when I started the first version of ManicMedic. When I caught word she was working on a show about mental illness I was so excited.

About the show direct from thisismybrave.com

This Is My Brave will function as a platform for people with something positive to say about living with mental illness. It’s time we bring mental health issues into the spotlight because they’ve been in the dark too long. This is an effort to encourage people to be brave and to stand up and talk about mental illness.

I just want to thank Jennifer for writing such a great show and im looking forward to hopefully seeing it May 18, 2014.

Getting back into the swing of things and other fustrations

I decided that I wanted to get back into Emergency Medical Services, I have to admit that I missed it. So I went to a volunteer organization and filled out an application, kinda excited to see how things go….

So that covers “getting back” part… and now onto the frustrations:

The library is loud, very loud and annoying, my commute to work is annoying, me getting annoyed is annoying. I guess this is something that I have to discuss with my therapist during our next appointment. Things are going good between me and the wife, sometimes we get into arguments. Sometimes because I do something stupid and sometimes for other reasons. After we fight and sometimes during I find myself talking to myself in my head, wanting to fight more, argue more, try to prove my point. This of course doesn’t help things, just makes them worse.

Hello friends…

In back, in not really sure what happened but i lost interest. In much of anything. It finally hit me the other day, I enjoyed the interaction I had with the people who read this blog. So with that being said, let me update on my life.

In October I got married to my best friend, it was a small ceremony with just a few family and friends and I wouldn’t change that for the world.

Work is going well, I really don’t have any complaints other than the long commute.

My mental health has been up and down lately, but nothing to warrant a hospital stay.

Unfortunately all my previous blog posts are gone, but I learned to keep things backed up and not make the same mistake I did last time.

I promise I will write more later and work more on the layout later.  I just wanted to get things done and rolling.